Emotional Intelligence

Today during my job interview with a high level executive at the company I was asked, "people skills or technological skills?" I responded, "people skills." He said, "I agree." I asked him if he ever read the book "Emotional Intelligence." He said, "that sums it up".

This was our conversation. We connected perfectly and barely used any words. Everything in my life is pointing to the importance of people skills and managing others (most of the jobs I'm interviewing for are for management positions). I'm not going to lie, I'm a good leader. I know how to manage others. It is simply manipulation (of course I believe in good manipulation instead of letting power get to one's head). Despite my skills of motivating others, I can't seem to grasp how to manipulate my own feelings to my advantage.

I'm definitely a creature of my emotions. My surroundings and level of stress affect my mood tremendously. My method of coping is laughing things off and making a fool of myself. Listening to extreme rap music also allows me to forget the pains of life. Unfortunately, once that emo music comes on at a restaurant, there is not much I can do.

I wish writing this entry would give me an answer to my problems. It seems to be pointing out to myself that I must delve deep into my feelings by meditating in a forest and face my issues instead of covering them up. I might as well do it since I'm not even sufficient at numbing myself. I'll let you guys know how this journey pans out. Or if I even attempt it.